life's too short

...

2004-08-12T04:19:51Z

mint tea makes my heart happy.

lamelikewhoa @ 2004-08-11T17:45:00

2004-08-12T00:46:04Z

Namaste
I honor the place in you in which the entire universe dwells. I honor the place in you which is of love, of truth, of light, and of peace. When you are in that place in you, and I am in that place in me, we are one

life.

2004-08-10T04:48:17Z

--> Lynzey is awesome. I love her. Things are great.
--> School is fun, but homework is killing me.
--> I have to read The Red Badge of Courage again, and that makes me sad.
--> I would tell this to my teacher, that I have read that book before, but she is scary.

and that is all I have time for at the moment.

lamelikewhoa @ 2004-08-02T07:20:00

2004-08-02T14:21:18Z

aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

I'm gonna be at school in like 5minutes *faint*

new layout.

2004-07-31T00:22:39Z

pictures compliment of "toothpaste for dinner.com"

kitties!

2004-07-29T21:05:18Z

awww. I just had to do this.

the first one is casper, who is MY kitty. Then there is tigger, dad's cat. = D

lamelikewhoa @ 2004-07-29T12:00:00

2004-07-29T19:02:28Z

So, weird stuff, last night I had the most political and deep discussion ever.. with my parents! We talked about president bush, abortion, stem cell research, gay marriage (roar to their opinions ><), gay rights, womens rights, and religion. It was crazy. It was fun though. I liked it alot.

^^ funny how much you can learn about your parents through such a political discussion.

Cries

2004-07-28T20:28:11Z

I'm just.. so.. happy.

I've been trying for, like, ever to download "smells like teen spirit" by Nirvana... and every single frekkin time it always does "more sources needed for download"

I mean, I downloaded everysingleone that pops up in the search. I did everything multiple times.

And it finally downloaded today. *tear*

YAY. LoL

yay for mood swings, too, right max?

lamelikewhoa @ 2004-07-26T13:29:00

2004-07-26T20:29:37Z

*cry* I'm bored.
And dressed
All ready to go somewhere.
SOMEONE SAVE ME!

here is my interesting and philosophical logic of the day..

2004-07-26T04:50:37Z

I was talking to Lynzey this morning and she told me to think of something interesting and philosophical to say to her. So, this is what came out..

"I was thinking about Borders and I just found it funny that the word (although not correctly spelt) 'bored' is in there because normally, I go there when I am bored. So its like, the place for bored people to go"
and she says "yeah like if you surf, you are a surfer so if you are bored you are a boreder?"
and I go "Exactly! So technically that store was MADE for us! The store for bored people!"

Yep. Ain't that special.

awww

2004-07-26T02:33:07Z

Maricela brought me candles. She is so sweet.

I <3 you Maricela.

haha.

2004-07-23T16:59:12Z

only us, Ash.

from the stars x: I wonder why funny is spelt wit two n's and not one... hmmm.
Ashley: 'cause then wouldn't it be pronounced like "fyoo-ny?"
from the stars x: well thats what I was thinkin, but does the sound of the u change?
from the stars x: I think the sound of a U is always the same unless its with an O or osmething
from the stars x: something*
Ashley: uhhh
Ashley: I wouldn't know
Ashley: or remember
from the stars x: lol

I read this on someone's profile and found it rather amusing..

2004-07-23T03:38:17Z

"my heart is broken.. but I have some glue?"

lol.

I update too much. I think I need a life.

sigh

2004-07-23T02:44:09Z

I feel sick.

And tired.

And I have a badass headache.

Rawr.

wee

2004-07-22T18:53:48Z

I am actually excited about this school year. I dunno how many SHS kids read this but if we have any same classes, tell me!

1: Geometry - Amador
2: Drawing/Painting - (staff)
3: English 3 CP - Lingofelt
4: US History - Groeling
5: French 1 - Lewycky
6: Chorus - (staff)

retarded

2004-07-22T00:00:38Z

I can't believe I didn't post these.

the harlot and the nun

2004-07-21T22:41:22Z

(I know I know, gettin tired of all the lyrics, poems, and whatnot? well, kiss my ass. this is my journal. besides, I think you might enjoy this)

Two figures lay in the morgue,
Dragged from the river deep:
A harlot was one, the other a nun,
Wrapped in endless sleep,
With a cake of ice at their shoulders,
And nobody there to weep.

The features were much distorted,
Only the clothes could name,
Which was the nun, and the other one
The woman lost to shame;
But the clothes were taken away,
When the coroners's deputy came.

And somehow their garments were mixed,
And thus when identified,
The fallen one became the nun,
And she was sanctified;
And the holy sister was buried alone
As though her shame to hide.

The woman of shame lies honored,
In Calvary's holy ground,
While Sister Celeste always will rest
'Till the very last trumpets sound,
As ninteen hundred and eight,
In a city's nameless mound.

So only the Master knows them
From the records of the mind;
"Judge not," He said, "the quick nor dead
Lest ye be judged in kind;"
For women's woes are many,
And the human eyes are blind.

"hard love" by bob franke

2004-07-20T04:19:22Z

these aren't the full lyrics, but my favorite parts of the song...

it was hard love, every step of the way
hard to be so close to you, so hard to turn away
and when all the stars and sentimental songs dissolved today,
there was nothing left to sing about but hard love

so I loved you for your courage and your gentle
sense of shame,
and I loved you for your laughter and your language
and your name,
and I knew it was impossible, but I loved you just the same
Though the only love I gave to you was hard love

it was hard love, it was hard on you I know,
when the only love I gave to you was love I couldn't show.
You forgave the heart that loved youas your lover
turned to go,
leaving nothing but the memory of hard love

so I'm standing in this phone booth with a dollar and a dime
wondering what to say to you to ease your troubled mind
for the Lord's cross might redeem us, but our own just wastes
our time
and to tell the two apart is always hard, love

so I'll tell you that I love you even though I'm far away
and I'll tell you how you change me as I love from day to day
how you help me to accept myself and I wont forget to say
love is never wated, even when its hard love

yes its hard love, but its love all the same
not the stuff of fantasy, bur more than just a game
and the only kind of miracle thats worthy of the name
for the love that heals our lives is mostly hard love

I hope this doesn't get mangled.

2004-07-20T02:17:48Z

interview with a stepfather. from the book "hard love" by ellen wittlinger.

boy:         So, you'd like to interview for the job of stepfather?
step:               Well, I will if I have to. I sure would like to marry your mother.
boy:         And I'd sure like to know your qualifications for the job, if I may.
step:               I didn't think I needed any qualifications. I mean, the rela job is being a husband to your
                 mother, isn't it? This stepfather thing just happens. I didn't think I'd have to do anything.
boy:         You don't have to, however, doing nothing would make you indistinguishable from my
                 real father. Surely you don't want that to happen.
step:              Oh, certainly not. I'm glad you told me. Well, if he doesn't do anything, I guess that means
                 I'll have to do alot. What kinds of things should I do, though? Take you to baseball games?
                 Toss the old football around the yard? You like to go fishing?
boy:         God, no. How about if you help me pull a few tricks on mom? Maybe we could put some
                 plastic cockroaches in her bed, or fill her shampoo bottle with maple syrup, or donate all
                 her shoes to the Salvation Army? I think it would help us bond.
step:              What! I would never do that to your mother! Whats the matter with you, boy?
boy:         I guess I just need a firm but loving hand.
step:              You do, young fella, and I'll be there to give it to you.
boy:         I'm sure you will. I'm sure you gave it to your own son, didn't you?
step:              My son? Well I don't see the boy too often. Lives in another state, you know.
boy:         State of confusion?
step:              Huh?
boy:         Lets continue with the interview: are you aware that when my beloved mother snores, it
                 measures six point two on the Richter scale? And did you know that when the cat bit her,
                 she bit him back?
step:              Stop it, boy. You're lying. You don't deserve to have such a wonderful mother, if you don't
                 mind my saying so.
boy:         Don't mind in the least. I'd even agree with you. She, however, does deserve me. After all,
                 that wonderful mother raised me, didn't she? Molded me into the great guy I am today.
                 What you see before you is the result of her hard work.
step:              You know what I think? I think you must be just like your dad. Its not your mothers fault
                 you're so rotten -- its that lousy father of yours.
boy:         Sir, I t hink you hit the nail on the head. I'm a reproduction of the old bore: selfish and full
                 of shit. The prize for your insightfulness is the hand of my mother. Long may it wave.
step:              Get lost, kid. We don't need your kind 'round here.
boy:         My feelings exactly.

lmfao. california.

2004-07-19T21:05:42Z

go to google.com, type in "you know you're in (insert your state here) when.." then copy and paste your answers into your journal.

You know you're in California when......

1. Your coworker has 8 body piercings and none are visible.

2. You make over $300,000 and still can't afford a house.

3. You take a bus and are shocked at two people carrying on a conversation in English.

4. Your child's 3rd-grade teacher has purple hair, a nose ring, and is named Breeze.

5. You can't remember...is pot illegal?

6. You've been to a baby shower that has two mothers and a sperm donor.

7. You have a very strong opinion about where your coffee beans are grown and can taste the difference between Sumatran and Ethiopian.

8. You know which restaurant serve the freshest arugula.

9. You can't remember.....is pot illegal?

10. A really great parking space can totally move you to tears.

11. A low speed police pursuit will interrupt ANY TV broadcast.

12. Gas costs $1.00 per gallon more than anywhere else in the U.S.

13. A man gets on the bus in full leather regalia and crotchless chaps. You don't even notice.

14. Unlike back home, the guy at 8:30 am at Starbucks wearing the baseball cap and sunglasses who looks like George Clooney IS George Clooney.

15. Your car insurance costs as much as your house payment.

16. Your hairdresser is straight, your plumber is gay, the woman who delivers your mail is into S &M, and your Mary Kay rep is a guy in drag.

17. You! can't remember...is pot illegal?

18. It's barely sprinkling rain and there's a report on every news station about "STORM WATCH 2003."

19. You have to leave the big company meeting early because Billy Banks himself is teaching the 4:00 PM Tae Bo class.

20. You pass an elementary school playground and the children are all busy with their cell phones or pagers.

21. It's barely sprinkling rain outside, so you leave for work an hour early to avoid all the weather-related accidents.

22. Hey!!!! Is Pot Illegal????

23. Both you AND your dog have therapists.

my hope, dangles on a string.. like slow spinnin redemption

2004-07-18T20:09:40Z

this song is so fuckin great.

Vindicated
I am selfish, I am wrong
I am right, I swear I'm right
Swear I knew it all along
And I am flawed
But I am cleaning up so well
I am seeing in me now
The things you swore you saw yourself

So turn up the corners of your lips
Part them and feel my finger tips
Trace the moment, fall forever
Defence is paper thin
Just one touch and I'd be in too deep
now to ever swim against the current

oh yeah

2004-07-18T07:11:08Z

my internet girlfriend (LOL haha) Katie is a great poet. She wrote this, and its.. just... awesome.

"in the moment i was lying there
i was dying there
and all i could breathe
was you
i'd love it
i swear
if we kissed once more
and believe me love
i'd die in your arms"

-Katie (blueskiesabove)

weee

2004-07-18T05:54:38Z

this is my ashleykins, and I love her so.

there's nothing you do, there's nothing you can say to keep me here

2004-07-17T16:43:44Z

my eyes feel raw.

I love this peom.

2004-07-17T06:13:23Z

I trust the red sun setting
the leafless november trees.
On Monday morning I look forward
fearcely to Friday's eve.

But humans are not as reliable
as nature, as trees.
I wonder if you'll come back
I trust only that you'll leave.

from the book "Hard Love" by Ellen Wittlinger.